Hi
To whom it may concern...
I have high functioning depression.
I’ll get “high”, go to functions anything really to get me out of this recession.
I’m numb half the time -
Melancholy creeps up on me.
I’ll spring up sometimes but most of time I feel like winter. Damn, I thought that jump start will get me going.
I feel sessile, an immobile car in a yard helplessly waiting on my impending doom. It’s looming on the horizon. You need to catch me while I’m hot because I’m cold at times.
Everything to everyone except myself or maybe I find it hard to accept myself... and or my circumstances. Music is my favourite escape but I can’t face the music?
I’m slipping through the cracks. My passive behaviour isn’t helping. I’m the problem and the solution yet I can’t quite figure things out.
I’m ready to glean. I’m ready to sow yet I look at my garden and I can’t even smell the roses. Pensive and anxious, chasing cheques but it seems I need to figure out how to cash this reality check first.
I need to reap before the reaper comes for me.
